if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.
Friday, April 23, 2010
Thursday, April 22, 2010
distance makes the heart grow fonder. apparently not.
so here i am, after this hellish week.
i can't say i'm happy it's over:
1) it will start all over again next week-assignments due and what not
2) i still feel restless. somehow, the assignments keep my mind busy.
it's about 4 more weeks till week 12. and that means, the finals are looming. on one hand i can't wait for the exam timetable to be released. that way i can book my flight home and either be overjoyed that my exams finish before my birthday, or be sad that i have to study through my birthday. either way, at least the anticipation will be over. on the other hand, when it comes out, it means the serious studying and panic stricken dreams begin.
wow. this semester seems to have flown by. time really flies when you're constantly busy. your attention flitting from assignment to lectures to tutorials to recreational activities, to god knows what. seriously, it really doesn't feel like i've had uni for the past 2 months.
which leads to the other issue. if time seems to be speeding up, it means that the day i graduate is coming faster than ever. bad thing. i don't feel that i'm ready to face the world, to be pushed into the working life. oh wow. deep thoughts for a thursday night.
moving on. the concept of time. i know time is universal, 1 hour is 60 minutes, 1 minute is 60 seconds. but the flow of time seems to differ from person to person, situation to situation. i mean, think about it.
you could be at work at this very moment, moaning about how each second feels like a minute. whilst i could be rushing an assignment, panicking about how each minute feels like a second. it's all in the mind (insert sarcastic comment). you never seem to appreciate the good times because they fly by so bloody fast, and you cringe and moan about how this 'pain' never goes away.. how it bugs you every waking second, and taunts you in your dreams.
it's all about time. you have to let in run its course.
time heals all wounds. yes, there will be scars. but at least a piece of your meat hasn't been gauged out. the pain will dull as time passes, because memories fade. and the brain has a knack of painting a rosy picture about everything, blurring the rough edges. a curse or a gift from god? i don't know. all i know is, time heals.
as scars heal, the skin gets tougher, you don't get hurt so easily. girls, think about the blisters you get when you start wearing a new shoe. it ruptures, then heals and the skin gets thicker. you wear other shoes, and guess what! that little bit of thick skin saves you from getting blisters and cuts again with another new pair. so hell yeah, scars remind us of the pain we've gone through, and hopefully, we learn from it.
okay i seem to be overthinking tonight. i shall save my other thoughts for another cloudy night. :)
psst! in honour of 420, queen victoria used to get her physician to prescribe marijuana for her period cramps. even royalty get high. hey, i'm not judging.
you shouldn't too, asshole.
Saturday, April 17, 2010
You see me sitting here
A smile upon my face
The time has come but you know that it's not too late
There's been too many things
Together we have seen
It's not that hard if we start to believe
And we're not gonna take anymore
Can we try to erase all the pain
So please
Show me a reason, give me a sign
Tell me the way we fall out of line
Is it today or is it tonight we'll find
The answer to our life
This world is not at ease
We seem to hide the truth
Thinking there's only so much we can really do
It's up to you and me
To fix our destiny
The jury's here, so let's take the stand
And we're not gonna take anymore
Can we try to erase all the pain
So please
So tell me why we have to cry (and not try)
When there's so many things we can do
To help this troubled world start anew
I need a reason, I need a sign
There's no turning back, I'm here by your side
Is it today or maybe tonight, we'll find
The answer to our life
Show me the way
Give me a sign
Tell me the way we fall out of line
Is it today, is it tonight
The answer to our life
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
veni vidi vici
no matter how 'modern' you think you are, you can't deny the enduring existence of the Double Standard.
yeah, females are supposed to be treated equally at all levels of society and in every activity.
but, think about it. are they? SHOULD THEY?
it's a very controversial topic.
i am a fervent supporter of equality of women. but also an ardent supporter of chivalry. some might call this hypocritical. but i like guys who know how to treat a lady. but at the same time, i hate having to be 'protected' from horrors. sometimes a good scare can help release stress.
okay i think my brain isn't articulating my point well. i shall pick this topic up again one day.
running on an empty tank
you asked me, "honey, open up."
you told me, "baby, let me in."
you urged me, "darling, give this a chance."
you told me, "sweetheart, don't be scared."
you promised me, "babe, i won't hurt you."
i did all you asked.
if only you did the same too.
Monday, April 12, 2010
what can i do-the corrs
I haven't slept at all in days
It's been so long since we've talked
And I have been here many times
I just don't know what I'm doing wrong
Chorus:
What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there
There's only so much I can take
And I just got to let it go
And who knows I might feel better, yeah
If I don't try and I don't hope
Repeat Chorus
No more waiting, no more aching
No more fighting, no more trying
Maybe there's nothing more to say
And in a funny way I'm calm
Because the power is not mine
I'm just gonna to let it fly
What can I do to make you love me
(What can I do to make you love me)
What can I do to make you care
(What can I do to make you care)
What can I say to make you feel this
(What can I do to make you love me)
What can I do to get you there
(What can I do to make you care)
What can I do to make you love me
(What can I do to make you love me)
What can I do to make you care
(What can I do to make you care)
What can I change to make you feel this
(What can I do to make you love me)
What can I do to get you there
(What can I do to make you care)
Love me
(Repeat to fade)
Sunday, April 11, 2010
just to see you smile-tim mcgraw
got off your high horse. treat me how i treat you. show me that you're worth all the heartache.
cuz baby, one day i'm just gonna give up.
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Monday, April 5, 2010
lethal industry
do you ever get tired of being angry with someone and them being angry at you. but while this is all happening, you're busy reassuring the other person that you are not mad?
then hours later, you think about it and wonder what exactly the fight is about since both parties 'are okay'
it's ridiculous and counter-productive.
and when you try to tell them how you feel, it ends in a huge fight again in which sarcasm and bitchiness is the only form of response.
sigh. three cheers to teenage life!
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