bury and forget

when i hit 16, i thought i was an adult and living the life all adults talk about. you remember those cautionary phrases "life ain't as easy as it seems", "don't trust people, you never know what they are thinking" and other such 'redundant' words.

my first two years as a teen went pretty smoothly. so i gradually let down my guard. forgot all the advice people who loved me had told me. 

and guess what. that totally bit me in the ass.

starting my 19th year.. it seems obvious that life is getting more complicated. as each passing moment, it gets more treacherous. trust is no longer freely given and easily reciprocated. now is the time where the bonds of friendship are tested. and severed in just one stroke.

people who you thnk you know, and those you really do know for the majority of your life have absolutely no qualms about fucking up a great friendship. 

and they're all guys.

but hell. girls arent as innocent. but so far the girlfriends i know and love and trust have yet to betray me. 

they have been with me. and accepted and been with me through all types of shit. and have forgiven me. and we have endured cold wars.  bloody bitch fights. thank god for them. without them i would have gone crazy and shot every single person that brought me grief.

we have even reached the part where whatever shit things that happens in their lives can make us cry.