overload.

life was meant for living, yes?

how come we spend countess hours preparing

for 'life';

when we are already living it.

wish upon a star and put it in your pocket, never let it fade away... reminds me of how i used to be wisful and a staunch believer in the wonders of the universe and santa claus, and not to mention tooth fairy; whoose little one dollar coins i used to buy more sweets, which probably led to more teeth falling off. 

now, im older and hopefully wiser, with scienific information crammed into my brain every waking moment, it is no wonder that the wonders of the universe, and my beautiful belief in santa claus is gone.

kinda sad actually, kids should be able to live in their blissful ignorance longer than we do in this technological age. how many kids do u walk pass these days with no dolls or trains in their hands, but gameboys, handsets and stupid technology. geez. they're losing touch with history. 

i feel like gagging

ive about 10 vitamins lodged in my throat and refusing to move on down my oesophagus. (fancy word eh?) its seriously pissing me off. and yes i have tried drinking lots and lots of water. i shall stop rambling about my poor stuffed up throat. but it hurts!! :(

okay, stops now.

i've been having weird and freaky dreams nowadays, revolving around my mum and random people. but i dont remember them when i wake up the next day. which is annoying cuz what im left with is just the feeling of impending doom. the fog is depressing. makes the world all grey and ugly. i want sun! oh, which reminds me, the weather in oz during spring is the most fcuked up weather. it gets seriously cold, then takeoffyourclothes hot, and cloudy and windy and rainy. i hate it. drives me mad, especially when it just changes like that! *snaps fingers*

enough complaining.

(but i wasnt technically complaining, i was stating facts.)

speaking of facts, did you know 48 teaspoons make a cup? lol, and rats have super ass thin skin (baby rats that is) that you can see the milk flwoing in their bodies when they suckle at mummy's ahem. :D

quite cute aactually. and the person that added sugar to chewing gum was a dentist? greedy bugger, just wanted more clients. bah! GREED is a sin. 

im sitting at my computer blogging for the first time in a while because i cant load gossip girl. need ma fix man. i watched about 10 minutes of it last night and ive been dying to know what happens.serves me right for being impatient. but hey, at least i get to blog.

just had the trinity ball. on 31st oct, PICTURES ARE ALREADY UP! it was at Grand Hyatt. not boasting or anything , but it was beautiful. seriously. oh screw it, definitely boasting. it had like screens for projectors, wondefrful place setting, the colour scheme for the ballroom was black so imagine the impact of that with wonderful gold lights. and red roses. (getting goosebumps already!) it was fun, although i didnt make it to the after party as i was all tired out from being there at 6ish. student comm and all that, which was useless as guess wat, we didnt do anything. sigh. but camwhored a whole lot! everyone did. 

lol, good thing is, i saved quite a lot of $$ this time, did make up and hair all by myself, only bought the dress and accessories (about 20?). i sort of realized i already have a whole ton of shit that i can use again for balls, :D. *balls*. lol.

exams are in less than 2 weeks. panic mode. im sick of studying. should have done wat jon did and take a year off book studying and go do culinary. bah. that guy is smart.

okay, so i gotta go. :D

Hands up for tickles!!! :D

hehe. :)

okay, that first line is misleading considering the fact that i am totally frustrated cuz i cant log into my trinity portal to get my maths results. i have a very dreadful feeling about it and its torturing me by not letting me gooooo! the cruelty of this world. sighhhhhh.

first week of school and im already tired. and guess wat, i have 4 weeks of class, den the big scary finals. shit thats the thing that determines my school life. no wait, MY LIFE!. omgosh. can i be any more dramatic.

anyway, about my lovely 14 days of holidays. it seems like a total blur, i remember the first week crwaling by and then the last 7 days whizzing by with the speed of light. speaking of whizzing, two things. shuaib said "i thinkk 70% of the pee in the world is yours!" it's not totally uncallled for since i tell him i need to pee every 30 seconds. (exaggeration) 2nd thing-the year has flown!cant believe ts already october. i'll be home in two months! :D:D:D:D:D

i went ssuper mega shopping and paintballing during the holidays and had pho in richmond wiht my hoi buddies. and went to brunswick and ate halal mcd's. and oh, i spent a whole day making yummy yummy BACON and BEEF-filled lasagna. now that i've typed everything out, it seems that i didnt do much, but i did! i went all the way to bridge road to shop! bought puma shoes that i have not worn till now. shhy shy. cuz sporty isnt really my look. i know i know i should wear more shoes and just give up my flip fllops. but i like flip floops. a thought just occured to me imagine in 20 years, and i still wear slippers everywhere. how embarrassing. lol.

ive gotten almost all my results. EXCEPT FUCKING MATHS. economics is by far the lowest, coming in at a mere 80. sigh.

i cant wait to get back to msia. have lists of things to do, and food to eat. funny how i never loved msia until i left. coincidentally today in economics, we were talking about politics and i realized i have no idea what is happening politically in msia. all i know is that it's getting super bloody hot. shit, im quite scared that when i go back home i'll get a hell lot of pimples. what with the polllution and humidity! gosh.

lizards communicate using push ups.

oh and i joined the ranks of the spoilt and gotten super long nails. acrylic nails. french tips style!

jon and kevin came over during the holidays. lol spent more time with jon than i ever did before.quite funny. he said a lot of shit that nearly made me pee my pants. lol. kevin said 'my friend is sensitive to the sun.' he heard 'kevins friend is flying to the sun.'

lol. which reminds me i have to find a software for that indian. :D

oaky its lunch now and i have totlaly no hope of finding oout my maths results before class..s cared i get super low and cry in front of the class. just have to resign myself to life. i just thought of sth my drama teacher said in class. cuz he split the class in two to play a game and he joined my group and helped us cheat. beee bee in the other group was like, thats unfair. and he looked all solemn and said 'that's life!"

so yeah. life sucks.

lol. i lvee today so sunny. yes in contradiction with the above line. life is also very contradictory.


syuck on this bitches! :D

poem in an email!

Just for this morning, I am going to

smile when I see your face and laugh

when I feel like crying.

Just for this morning, I will let you

choose what you want to wear,

and smile and say how perfect it is.

Just for this morning, I am going to step

over the laundry and pick you up and take you to

the park to play.

Just for this morning, I will leave the

dishes in the sink, and let you teach me how to put

that puzzle of yours together.

Just for this afternoon, I will unplug

the telephone and keep the computer off, and sit with

you in the backyard and blow bubbles.

Just for this afternoon, I will not yell

once, not even a tiny grumble when you scream and

whine for the ice cream truck, and I will buy you one

if he comes by.

Just for this afternoon, I won't worry

about what you are going to be when you grow up, or

second guess every decision I have made where you are

concerned.

Just for this afternoon, I will let you

help me bake cookies, and I won't stand over you

trying to fix them.

Just for this afternoon, I will take us

to McDonald's and buy us both a Happy Meal so you can

have both toys.

Just for this evening, I will hold you in

my arms and tell you a story about how you were

born and how much I love you.

Just for this evening, I will let you

splash in the tub and not get angry.

Just for this evening, I will let you

stay up late while we sit on the porch and count all the stars.

Just for this evening, I will snuggle

beside you for hours, and miss my favorite TV shows.
"Just for this evening when I run my

finger through your hair as you pray, I will simply be

grateful that God has given me the greatest gift ever given.

I will think about the mothers and

fathers who are searching for their missing children, the

mothers and fathers who are visiting their children's

graves instead of their bedrooms. The mothers

and fathers who are in hospital rooms

watching their children suffer senselessly and screaming

inside that little body

And when I kiss you goodnight I will hold

you a little tighter, a little longer..

memories can kill you

whew. what a dark and gloomy title. lol. just wanted to SHOCK people. okay, i realize how lifeless that is. but 'm too lazy to move my cursor up and change it.

anyway, it's been a looong time since i've blogged and guess why? exams baby! but thank god (yes, god) that they're all over. i can't shake the weird feeling off that i sort of screwed up mathseconslithoipsychenglish. but shit, can't do much about it now can i?

and hehehe, the holidays have started! :D so another reason why i'm late in updating.

today is my day in, finally had a day to rest after the hectic revision week (pre exam), exam period, and post exams activities (FUTSAL. never knew futsal could be so fun. except the cold) and god knows wat else i've been doing with myself. cant remember.

today's weather is kind of great. :D sunny and all and to compliment it i am wearing a bright yellow shirt with a huge smiley on it! YOU JUST DONT GET DAYS LIKE THIS MUCH IN MELBOURNE! it's supposed to be spring but i think spring is the most fked up period of all. it's a mix of wintersummerautumn. stupid. it's freaking humid (with no sun, tons of clouds) and then it gets windy as hell, and the wind blows the clouds away (to somewhere else?) and it gets sunny, den the clouds come back pissed off and start peeing (rain!) and i heard thunder for the first time in months on friday!! bah. the weather is uber pissing off.

to happier things, food!! :D :D:D:D finnallly went to pancake parlour. oh.my.god. i can get orgasms eating the pancakes. and they taste so damn good. it's amazing! i've had breakfast there two days in a row and i still want more! yum. eveyrone MUST go there! MUST.

so now to the reason i mentioned memories in my title. :) was you tubing for once. to watch the thriller video by some indian dude. that is so funny. and decided to search for videos abou wesley methodist and i stumbled across our prom slideshow. :) brought sweet tears in my eyes (awww.). shall embed it here. and eveyrone must click PLAY and watch!

the sun will set for you!

:)

today is a sunny day. therefore i am happy! :) lol. the weather influences my mood. which is of course, undeniable. it's hard to be happy and perky in winter when the freaking sky is black at 5pm. now it's warm and sunny! but with bouts of wind. :( and since i only wore my tommy shirt (hehehe. i am still very happy about that shirt) it got a bit cold. but no worries. i'm strong. or at least i pretend to be.

something sick and disgusting! hehee. today i had phlegm right and so i disposed of it in a tissue and since it was during my psych lecture, i looked at it. and guess wat it had specks of red in it which i presume to be blood! eek. and it was yellow. which means my sore throat and cough is not getting any better. :( shit and my exams are next week. but i am strong! lol. maybe if i keep saying it it'll come true! 

so anyway, i had a scone for brekky today. but couldnt finish it cuz i was late. felt so sad throwing it in the trash. (goodbye scone!) hehe. but i wasnt the latest one to psych. stepping out cs, wen ting was like. WEN JUIN! so yay, i had a late buddy. stupid james (my lecturer) made us sit super in front. bleh! but whatever. i was wearing my happy pink shirt. another thing about my lecturer, he says 'happy' a lot. like 'turn your happy page' or 'happy me' or something. 

but whatever. after that, i had to go ngv for my hoi tute. lol. ngv-national gallery of victoria. before that, stopped by bacio dolce for my coffee! yummy! it was so nice. my new fav place (goodbye chill out!). hahah. took lots of pictures in ngv. since i'm in a super camwhoring mood now.. no idea why. click here! hopefully it works. or maybe u need to be logged in? i have no idea. but try anyway! Lol.

okay. i shall stop talking about my day. oh oh oh. talent quest pictures! or rather chilli malam pictures are.....here

so anyway, random fact time-

• sheep dont drink from running water. so u gotta put water in buckets. which is kinda weird, but it makes sense. i mean imagine u're a sheep rite and u're drinking from the river, ad suddenly a fish gets stuck in your mouth. a small small fish! lol.
• according to james, (and madagascar), cats hate water!
• OH! and this is the funniest thing ive learnt. tigers have striped skin! lol. so cute! maybe it's the residue colour from their fur.
• and...mosquitoes have teeth. can u imagine how bloody small their teeth are. 

realized that all my facts are about animals/insects. but whatever.

i gotta study man. seriously exams start next wed! and i have yet to start. granted i only have maths and econs. but those are the shittiest subjects EVER. so according to my wonderful mathematic calculations, i have... (counts with fingers) 8 days. (not counting today!) 

study wen study. and to all those trinity people. STUDY! :D time to nerd up! i know my blog is super interesting. but still study!! :D :D

oh ps! lol. i was on a total caffeine high today. lol. feel bad for fai julius and pei qi. had to put up with my nonsense and high pitched laughter! teee heeee.

danny was laughing the whole time.couldn't believe you were a nun!

for those non-trinitarians, this week is drama week. danny was my ex drama teacher-until he gave up on us. lol no, until he got reshuffled to another intake. shucks!

i suppose i owe someone an explanation for my blogging absence-i've been busy. what with student committee (mixer party, sponsoring, ball), my stupid essays ( i have one more, this time 1600 words on 2 stupid books i have not read), drama performance (that i am graded on.pfffft), and my extracurricular activities (clubbbbing and shopping. and being sociable. :D)

frick i'm sleepy.

oh and yes, i have been sick these few weeks. on and off sore throat with a constant attack of migraine and gastric. sigh.

but, i have had fun!

i shall talk about drama-hands down the funniest of the three performances in my class.thanks to my dear julius. lol. he made a total ass of himself. and he's super enthusiastic about it. :D quite fun. and he bought me food today so he has my heart. wheeeee!

i've lost my blogging mojo. oh. my mouth is quiute happy at the moment. eating gum that hua yu gave me. green apple flavour. lol. this entry is making me sound as if im a total charity case that has to rely on ppl for food. but that's not the case!!! i swear. i buy my own food all the time. it's just that i think people have decided tht the only way to make me happy is to give me food. whcih is sort of right. lol.

oh my, the panic has started. exams in. omgod. TEN DAYS. ten-fucking-days. and i have yet to start writing (OR READING!) the two books i've to write a comparative essay about. and my maths and eccons revision. this is so not good. it's like the term has flown away! i can still remember the holidays as if it was yesterday. whcih is kinda was. cuz i only had one class. at 1.45pm. okay, i admit. had a lecture at 9 for lit. but who the hell would wake up for that. :D and then, after that i did my favouritest activirty. went straight from class to melbourne central to shop! OOOOHHH!H!H shopped so much. bought so many things. feel happy. except i had to pee the entire time but i refused to give in. people in aussie would understand cuz it's a rarity that shops open past 5 on weekdays. (only on friday do shops open till 9. fucking stupid idea)

oh before that, i went to the gym. but could not do much cardio cuz i am freaking sick with flu. couldnt breathe properly. then after that i bought puffy! :D damn yummy. i want more. i only bought one cuz i didnt want to waste my gym session. :( but after that i watned more. till now. i want more. more more. it's so yum/ okay i shall stop talking about my desire for puffy.

we were talking aobut hua yu digging his nose in public. lol. then i thought of something. imagine you dig your nose. and take your nose shit and put it in your friend's nose. eek. which reminds me of adrian's friend-kavish. i think that's how it's spelt. he actually put his finger into my nose! OMG RITE. oh whcih also leads to my next thought-jun yu is here!!

seriously, it was a total surprise. i was on my way to classs.. walking out from my apartment buidling, and there he was standing with aiman and i dunno who. was so frekawing happy. :D

oh and great great news. pui may is coming next year! :D

uni applications due. SHIT.

lol. i have class now. sucks to be me.